February 2011


In Mark 1:34 Jesus didn’t allow the demons to speak because “they knew him”.  Have you ever stopped to wonder … why did He not want the people to know He was God come in the flesh?  Is it because He knew He would be too awesome for them to gaze upon?

Read with me in Exodus 20:19 when God was on Mount Sinai.  “Then they said to Moses, ‘You speak with us, and we will hear; but let not God speak with us, lest we die.'”  The people were afraid of God’s almighty power and physical presence with them.  It was too much for them to bear.   ” … they trembled and stood afar off.” (Exodus 20:18)

When Jesus was in the garden at Gethsemane before His crucifixion, He told the soldiers that came looking for Him, “I am He.” (John 18:6).  When they heard Him say that they “drew back and fell to the ground”.

Could it be that if Jesus had revealed Himself as God, that maybe they would have run from Him to save their lives?  Could it be that they would be so taken back they wouldn’t be able to fathom getting too close to Him?  Maybe it was simply enough for the people to know Him as the Christ, the prophet like Moses. (Deuteronomy 18:17-18)   Maybe it was the only way to get close to the people He loved so dearly.

All would be revealed in His time, of course, but for then, He left good enough alone.

We are but human, but God is The Almighty.

I have never in all my three calving seasons (ok, maybe that’s not long … but I’ve really never seen it … maybe Ree has … but I haven’t!) seen what I saw yesterday.  My husband used to work for OSU on the purebred range and he’s never seen anything like it either.  We look across the pasture to see that #14 just had her calf.  Yea … wonderful … life is great … but wait, there’s more.  #6 is trying to steal her calf!  Lyn goes up the hill to see just what in sam hill is going on.  #6 is in labor trying to have her calf at the same time and thinks that #14’s calf is hers.  So #6 is trying to lead #14’s calf off and is actually letting it nurse her … which isn’t good because her colostrum is for HER baby.  Calf confusion … what do you do?  Well, in hind sight … which is usually the best sight … too bad we can’t have it first … we should have just left the situation alone, however, we did not.

Long story short … some fancy truck driving and gate swinging later the two cows are separated and #14 has her own calf which is doing just fine.  #6 is freaking out and going crazy … she lays down and has her calf, which was super cool to watch, but is so riled up that we believe she wouldn’t let the calf nurse … or at least not enough.  So now we have one good calf, one weak calf and one crazy mama.  Maybe we should have left good enough alone, but there’s that hind sight.

Only time will tell about this little bull calf.  If he doesn’t nurse today we’ll have to force feed him to save his life.  In any case, though, the Lord will provide.

See, my life isn’t all sunshine and sunflowers, but it sure is interesting!

How many times have you heard this line from your children?  It can be a little annoying.  What do you think God feels when we ask this of Him?  I know God is working in my life.  I can feel it.  I can see the changes in myself and am amazed at the knowledge He is giving me.   But still I find myself saying, “Oh, Lord, can’t you just make me the person you want me to be … now … today?”  I want so much to be there!

I am finding that day by day God is repairing me.  He is healing me of things from my past as well as my present and teaching me that He is my Father and I am His child.  By doing this, He is preparing me to be the woman of God He wants me to be.  The steps must be taken step by step.  Steps cannot be skipped, just like you can’t skip a stitch when crocheting.  Something would be missing and I don’t want to miss a thing.

Still patience is not one of my strong points as, I’m sure, my children can tell you.  God and I will have to work on that as well.  So, step by step I’ll get ‘there’ … God will move me forward at His pace.  He knows me, my very soul and He alone knows how long it will take.  Each step is precious and I will take them carefully and joyfully.

I hope you are enjoying your journey!  I will see you ‘there’!!!